June Goals

Have we talked goals for the month? I think not. In my opinion, it’s good to keep a list of things to achieve in a set period of time. I like to accomplish these things within the month because it’s a good time frame for me. It holds me accountable and motivates me. So, let’s get down to it, shall we?

1. Get into mermaid pose! I’ve become very intrigued by the whole yogi lifestyle and I fell that much more in love with it once I found out there was a pose named after my people, you know, because I’m a mermaid and all. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get into this pose by the end of the month, but I hope to be able to at least put my foot in the proper place near my elbow. I’ve tried to do it and for me, touching my hands together is the most difficult.  This is what it looks like.

mermaidpose2. Do a split! Continuing with yoga poses, I’d like to be able to do a split. Any kind. My inguinal ligaments are my least flexible. In fact, I’m pretty sure I was born with half the length of normal tendons/ligaments in that area. Maybe it’s the muscles…who knows! Either way, I struggle with a lot of the poses that require a full separation. It’s sad, but I’m working on it! I’m serious. I even got these fun tools to help me. A sweet looking professional strap and blocks!yogatools

3. Find a job! This isn’t fitness-related, but it’s definitely necessary. I’m at a point in my schooling where I can handle a job and maintain good grades. I only have 3 more pre-reqs until I can apply to a nutrition program. I’m trying not to be tooooo picky about what kind of job, but there are absolutely things I won’t do lol.

4. Make time for fun! After all, I am on summer break. I should be having fun and laughing and being adventurous. I guess it’s just hard when my husband is gone, which feels like all the time, and when I hardly know anybody out here. I need to just do it. I’ve been exploring a bit here and there, but I get lonely. However, the only way to make friends is to meet people, right? Tis why I made this a goal 🙂

Inhale Love

My gorgeous fit girls, how are you?

I’m doing okay. Trying my best to enjoy my summer break although it feels like anything but, until this week. School may not be in session, but I am busy with other projects and commitments. One of my very great friends is having her baby shower this month and I was honored to help with a portion of the event! I’ve also been unpacking and settling into our new condo in San Diego, job hunting, and day to day responsibilities. All the while worrying about my ill grandma. She suffered from dementia for the last couple years and a few weeks ago she had a pretty bad stroke. I can’t describe to you how much it’s been breaking my heart to see the once vivacious and caring woman who I love with all my heart this way.

I feel relieved to have filled you in. I also wanted to fill you in on another important life event.

I think I have finally reached the point where I am happy just to be exactly who I am. I don’t feel like my weight is really all that important. These days I’m doing things simply because it makes me feel good. I want to eat to nourish my body because it makes me feel good. I practice yoga because I love how much more aware of the world I feel afterward. I lift because it makes me feel strong and fierce.

I know I’m beautiful.

It took me a hell of a long time to get here. I know I’ll still have some bad days here and there; that’s just reality, but my hope is to continue enjoying myself the way I have been. I’m not worried about trying to lose any more weight or get abs. My goals have shifted from the physical to internal. I’m more concerned with how good of a person I can be, helping others, making other people feel good about themselves, and living a happy, healthy life.

The purpose of life is to be happy. What matters most is love and happiness.

I was pretty upset that my doctor said I couldn’t run or perform any of my favorite lifts. I had to find new things to make me happy and now it feels like everything happened the way it was meant to. Would I have ended up here regardless? I’m not sure and I’ll never know, but I’m here now 🙂

If I’ve learned anything in life it’s to roll with the punches and not let things keep you down. We all fall, but getting up is how we learn.